Ta Da
Posted by lorenda on October 3, 2005
First post. I’ve done the blogg thing before but never seem to be able to stick with it for long. So we’ll see how it goes.
It’s a bit late now, and I’m due to be up in a few hours. Like always I’m not letting my self do the thing I like to do most. Sleep. What is that? Some sort of masochist need for punishment because I wasn’t spanked enough as a child? Self inflicted pain for the following day so it can be shitty too?
Or is it so I can complain and get pity? Attention? Approval? I’ve been watching myself here lately in my interactions with others. And to tell you the truth I’m not liking what I’m seeing. Who have I really become? Some sort of attention whore with bad stories that people tolerate? Some one who really listens or pretends too? Am I the person who you smile and nod at while they ramble on about some shit that has no real ending? No climatic finish. No spark.
When are you going to have children? You’d make such a good mom. Would I? Really? Can you be a good parent when you are wrapped up in you own petty crap? Ya know just because you can have kids doesn’t mean you should.
Damn
