Malaise

Well this has been a long uneventful week. I feel as though I am stuck in a rut for some reason. Maybe I need more pets or even a kid to break this monotony. Well that may be a bit drastic.

There are massive fires down in SE Washington. My dad, ever the adventurer, went to help put it out. He will be turning 66 this year. Worry is constant when it comes to my father. Either by him or one of us. Hell I couldn’t even ride my bike on the gravel road by my house until I was 12. Wear any kind of makeup until 13 and then only pinks and no eye liner, mascara, blush or fingernail polish. But that’s a father for you. Damn lucky and grateful to still have him around.

le sigh….

DON’T PANIC is that friendly enough?

well I have a myspace account now. This will still be my main thought page tho. Just look to the side bar over there >>>>>>>>> and I am sure you will see it.

poem?

Well good news. Hypnos granted my wish. Taking the drive really seemed to clear the head, even if the bumps jarred the spine. Able to think and to move without worrying about others and what they may or may not be thinking.

Seen my beautiful home.
The mountains call to me when I am not there
and sing when I am.
Calmness envelops me and I am still.
Able to breathe.
Eyes are able to see
what my mind has created.
my feet feel the dirt, snow
and she welcomes me.

Do you ever have something very clever played out in your head, and then it vanishes when you go to write it down? Like a novel or a short story, even a chapter? It is so frustrating!!!

WTF is wrong with me? Why is the wonder of sleep eluding me from her glorious arms? Or his, depending on your chosen faith.
Big day tomorrow, uh, er… Today. Heading to the mountains. Having some lunch with a great friend up there. And then back down to help her tidy her house before her mom and sister arrive.

It would be really nice if a trek to the mountains wasn’t such a burden to others. At least it seems that way. My husband, friends even my family look at me as tho I have lobsters crawling out me ears if it should be suggested. So why then don’t I have the cahones to go alone? Just go. Be alone with the solitude that being on a mountain top or glen brings? Fear? Lack of gas, abduction, wildlife, accidents, aliens who knows! Maybe its just fear. Of being alone. When one feels alone in their daily lives, why seek it out? But isn’t solitude and aloneness different?

GAAA this is why sleep is important!

Bored and can’t sleep

Lethal combination. I think I bought too much stuff. But what do ya do? I wonder if I’m going to get anything done today? Probably not. Even tho there is TONS to do.
piddly things. Mundane things.
pet store
cat food/filter
screen door
propane
bookstore
movie night
yadda yadda yadda

at least my house is clean. ya ought to come over and see the pristine landscape that is my home. Because it isn’t going to last for long.

Bored and can’t sleep

Boy is that a lethal combination. so i visited my old dead journal and found old “quizes” so here are a few that still made me giggle….
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The Potion Maker
devi isolderium is an opaque, swirling sky blue liquid created from the belly of a tortoise.
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The Dante’s Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell – the Malebolge!
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Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)

Lust
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What swear word are you?

your fuck.
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metalhead
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Little spooky

Tuesday night/Wednesday morn I went outside to snap a few shots of the moon cuz it was full. And I was a little disappointed cuz we usually have clouds when its full but none then. So I started snapping the cats and surprise surprise they don’t like the flash, haha. Then I was struck with a little “ah ha” moment and I said in a very loud and clear voice “if anyone would like you picture taken now would be the time to let me photograph you” and I started snapping pictures. Surprise to me, even tho’ I shouldn’t have been. I got quite a few ORBS and tracers! Some really big too. So if you want to see them just go to “photos” on the side bar/

On Wednesday we went golfing with Jessica. Even tho she doesn’t & didn’t want to golf she drove the cart. We all had a wonderful time then we went to red robin and had supper. Its been so good to spend time with friends that you don’t always get to see.

Oh and you know those seeds I planted? Well they sprouted by sat. And now there is no stopping them. Now if I could just keep the Katz from sleeping in the pots!

wheee

wow i have gotten at lot of shit done this week.
rearranged the deck. planted every single empty planter i had with seeds and of course plants. do you know that the dang things have sprouted aready?
started clearing the space between the deck and the fence which it like 15 feet or so and i’m gonna make it into a patio, hopefully before the year is out.
got my fountian done. wormed the cats…ew.
on friday i helped laura move and then went to pirates II with aidan and scott.
then on sat when laura had to go to work aidan and I went up to the folks and played in the river. and i got a damn sunburn with spf 30 on!!
and today i just finished some cornbread and i can’t seem to figure out why it keeps burning the edges. i guess i’ll keep experimenting.

well i am sure there is something that i need to be doing so i should go and find it i suppose…..